I was raised by my mom and grandparents. My dad was never really in my life and my mom struggled with her own problems. I have three brothers and one sister and I helped take care of them as the oldest. I missed a lot of school. At the age of thirteen, I started running away, and soon I began to use meth and run with the wrong crowd. When I was fifteen I was violated by my best friend’s dad. My addiction got worse after that. I eventually dropped out of school altogether.
When I was twenty-four I found out I was pregnant. I was able to stop using once I saw that little baby on the computer screen. For years I thought I could not get pregnant so I was so happy that I had Jaime. But all that guilt and shame was building up inside me still and I wanted to forget about it. So I started using drugs again and leaving Jaime with my mom. This added to my guilt because now I felt like I was a worthless mother. Soon I did not even recognize myself. I was doing things I never thought I would.
Finally, my life was so messed up that I decided to make a change. I checked into a rehab center, and even though I did not complete the program, I was able to stay clean for a while. That is when I first went to church. I felt loved and wanted and I started to learn about God’s free gift of eternal life. But, sadly I started using again. I was still holding onto all those hurts from my past and felt I had the right to be angry. Finally I hit bottom and realized I needed help.My pastors told me about the Teen Challenge program.
I walked through the doors of Teen Challenge with my son and it was the best decision I ever made. There I developed a personal relationship with Jesus. I felt like a hole in my heart had been filled. God has restored my relationships with my family and friends. Jaime also has Jesus in his heart and is happy and healthy. Now I am a good mom and I am looking forward to all God has planned for me. To those who supported my son and I while in Teen Challenge, I want to say “Thank you!”