The Invisible Man
Who Is Really Calling the Shots?
I remember as a kid watching the movie: “The Invisible Man”. And since I have always had a very active imagination, it caused me to fantasize over all the things I could do if I was invisible. I imagined myself listening in on conversations; playing practical jokes; and stealing my favorite candy bar. But, what I didn’t realize, is that I do have an invisible man that affects every part of my life. In fact, the invisible man often takes over the “front man” that everyone sees. Let me explain what I mean by posing some questions.
Have you ever been in a situation where you couldn’t believe that the crazy person you were watching was the person in the mirror? You see this total stranger jumping up and down like a wild woman, out of control with rage over the most minor incident. What is up with her? And if that wasn’t enough, later she screams and nearly jumps out of her skin because someone quietly steps up behind her. Then, you find her making midnight runs to the fridge when she knows that the doc told her to stop! Why, you ask yourself, why did I act that way? Why couldn’t I keep my mouth shut? Why couldn’t I just “let it go”? Why did I give into temptation? I’m here to tell us that there may be a number of really good reasons.
If you have been reading my blog, you know I was raised in a harsh environment. Along with that, due to a family member’s mental issues, I have been held against my will; injured to the point of having to have major surgery; had knives held on me and more. This definitely has had an effect on me. Decades later, I am still “jumpy”; I am always on alert; and have to consciously make sure I respond and not just react. I also often use humor as a cover for being uncomfortable and still tend to sit with my back against the wall. The reason…
God has done incredible healing in my life, but when certain situations remind me of those things I went through, my “invisible man”, the soul part of me, my emotional man that is still in the healing process tends to rise up. When he rises up, it is easy for me to go to old defense mechanisms – defense mechanisms that I no longer need because of my relationship with Christ. Even though I know I am loved, accepted and protected, that doesn’t change some of the emotions I experience. So what am I to do?
- Face the issues. Know situations that may cause problems to rise and have a plan as to how to deal with them.
- Honestly examine what goes on when the “invisible man” strikes. Ask the Holy Spirit to give you insight.
- Don’t be afraid to seek further healing. Talk with your Pastor; see a counselor if need be; go for prayer. (I personally have done all of these and still do them as needed.)
- Instead of being angry or frustrated with yourself – love on yourself; nurture yourself.
- PLEASE DON’T stuff it!
- PLEASE DON’T ignore it!
- DO Deal with it! Do whatever it takes to live healthy, whole and free.
As I have indicated, I sure haven’t arrived. But, I like who Christ is making me to be. If I want to keep growing; keep healing; keep becoming the woman of God that Christ wants me to be, I have to get honest about the unseen things that drive me. The invisible man is okay in a big screen flic, but I want to make him “visible” so I can, through Christ, deal with anything he brings to the table.